dear chicago,

you'll never guess. you know the girl you said i'd meet someday? well, i got something to confess. she picked me up on friday. asked me if she reminded me of you. i just laughed and lit a cigarette; said that's impossible to do.

my life's gotten simple since, and it fluctuates so much. happy and sad, then back again. i'm not crying out too much.

i think about you all the time. it's strange and hard to deal. i think about you lying there, and those blankets lie so still. nothing breathes here in the cold, nothing moves or even smiles. i've been thinking some of suicide, but there's bars out here for miles.

sorry bout the every kiss, every kiss you wasted back. think the thing you said was true, i'm gonna die alone and sad.

the wind's feeling real these days, and baby it hurts me some. never thought i'd feel so blue. new york city, you're almost gone. think that i've fallen out love with you ...